Dear Baby

Dear Baby,

Although the world never got to meet you, today you are up in Heaven with God. You are in a place where angels are celebrating your homecoming and I'm certain God is holding you, sniffing your baby head, and marveling at your small baby fingers. I am sure of his pride in your beauty, in your sleepy baby smiles, and I know that it's farther reaching than the pride I would have experienced had I held you first in the hospital. Although I didn't get a chance to wipe off your little finger smudges off of our back door window, you have left indelible marks on my heart. You are my child! I will always love you! Heaven blew every trumpet and played every horn at your arrival last night, and I'm sure there couldn't have been a more grand entrance. I only wish I could've been one of the first to see your face.

There are few things I would like you to know:

I was very excited for you to join us - we were already planning where you would sleep and Sophia was VERY excited to help give you a bottle!

I miss you and am so sad that you are not here! But we will all see you someday - Macy, our boxer, will probably get there first and I must warn you, she will give you LOADS of KISSES! (But they're the best! And she is a VERY good doggy! Scratch her on her belly, and you will have a friend for life.)

I am thankful for you. You allowed me to see God a little more clearly, and know his great love and compassion in a way I have never before experienced. Because of that, your life was a ministry and you made a difference!

I cannot wait to meet you. Do you have blue eyes like your brother and sister or hazel eyes like your daddy? Are you tall like Mema or short like me? Are you good at building things like your Ampa or do you like to read like your Grammy? Of all the unanswered questions, I am sure that you love God like your Grampy, with your whole, unbridled and open heart.

You will be remembered. You will be thought of. I am thankful that you are with the Author and Perfecter of life, so that you can have the fullest life possible. Worship him face-to-face with all of heart, soul, mind and strength.

I cannot wait to meet you and I love you.
Mommy